You know the stages of grief? I think selfishness should be added. Because today I feel selfish.
We had so many plans we will never get to do. We were supposed to spend Thanksgiving with you. We never took you to Duplin Winery or Mother Earth Brewery. We were supposed to go to the chili festival this weekend. We had a credit to go to Wine and Design with you. I was already looking forward to the Shrimp Festival next year. You never opened the pepper jelly my Mom sent you.
I have no clue what I'm getting anyone for Christmas, but I knew what I was getting you. A bathroom guestbook and jewels for the Crocs that you just had to have. You never got to drink the wine that Jena bought you. We'll never get to have another beer tasting and I purposely left our glasses at your house.
I feel selfish because we'll never be able to go on a double date again. I'll never be able to steal your wife away, while you take my husband out shooting. I can never have all the girls over here, knowing that Danny can escape to your house (even if you wouldn't let him watch football!)
Today your mother-in-law said to me "God puts certain people in your path for a reason" and Jena has always said to me "you were the answer to my prayers." I think I need to talk to God more, I'm a planner and I would like to know his plans!
I hope heaven is filled with the hottest peppers, Crocs, guns, motorcycles, dogs, "The Worlds Best Beer," sarcasm, and new friends that you can debate with. I will miss all of these things about you.